Thursday, April 22, 2010

a new approach.

On january 5, 2009 I wrote the words, “Learn to accentuate the aesthetic of action, embrace the beauty of bravado, and the adore glamour of glory.”

Funny how we always kick off the new year with such furore. I was all for it. I had a new abstract art project (start here) that spawned the beautiful thought of posting all of my photography work. Well, not all of it, but what I consider to be my better shots. I started with my first roll. Has an amazing lamp shot. A few weeks later some cool lookin' water falling. I had planned on submitting something at least once a day or at least the equivalent. Over a year later.. I’m only 210 deep. Granted, there was much more work involved than I originally thought. But still... I failed. I haven’t even been trying to post. I have the images scanned but when it comes to editing, resizing, changing format, and posting for the word to see, I’m just not doing it. Once upon a time I didn’t have the proper equipment to get the work done. Now that I’ve slowly acquired the proper tools to accomplish my goal I use another excuse. Space. I’ve run out it. BS. If I had actually followed through, I might have sold some work, which would have provided the additional space required for my work. Fucking excuses.

Getting back to those opening words. Not just something to apply to my work ethic, but life in general. In spite of my massive circle of friends (associates) I’ve always had this general disdain for most of mankind and their behaviour. Consequently I lacked a social life but I was ok with this. I decided to “live it up” like many of my friends had been doing. Living for the moment is not something I can easily do. I’m always too worried about the moments after.

Re reading my words I’ve realized that my intent was beautiful but my approach, not so much. I’ve had the luxury of being able to step outside of myself and look at things objectively rather than subjectively. I left Colorado once to shed weight from my life. Now I’m moving from California to do the same yet again. i’m about to ‘lose’ a few ‘friends’ but I’m ok with it. The people that are worth holding onto have shown me who they are. And that number is incredibly small. But I love you all. I now know how to conduct myself with people. It’s a delicate balance of keeping the world close enough so that we’re not completely removed and only know of each other in passing yet far enough away so that we’re not intrinsically involved in each others lives.

“Learn to accentuate the aesthetic of action, embrace the beauty of bravado, and the adore glamour of glory.”

This isn’t something you can just wake up and do. It has to be learned. It’s a matter of making our actions more noticeable and prominent while maintaining a certain grace. Holding onto that graceful form to impress those you meet and executing it flawlessly. Repeatedly. And deeply loving and respecting the attractive, and exciting qualities that make your notable achievements seem appealing or special. In short, watch your character.

Saturday, April 10, 2010

better days

Yesterday was a good day. I wish more days like this would come along.